The Internal Dialogue of the Dropback.

Backbend Number 3 – “Okay, here we go…it’s time…but man, still a little stiff, Ok…straighten legs, straighten arms, get strong… ground! If we’re gonna stand, go now! Rock, rock, and whee! And we’re up. Well, that wasn’t so bad.”

Standing, Waiting, Psyching myself up – “Okay, you’re wearing ski boots. Feel that. Get grounded. Legs legs legs. And we’re going ….ooh, no never mind, back up.  Ok….take 2….back back back…reach….reach…ski boots! Legs damn it!…..and arch, reach for the feet….soft landing…Nice!”

“Okay, again…up we go! That was so not graceful. Well, ok, let’s go again….back, back, reach…remember, reach for the feet, that way you won’t drop so hard…that really works, I gotta remember to thank Z for that tip…Ok…almost there, and touchdown!”

“Whee! Up we go! Again, not graceful…where’s the rhythm? Oh well…back again…swing the arms…ground the legs and Booya! Touch down with no flop…Awesomeness.”

“Ok…let’s just do a few more…don’t think, just go…..seriously, just go…swing, ground, Wheeee!”

“Well, that was fun….one more…here we go! You can do it! Slow, slow, reach, reach, ground….legs legs legs….beautiful landing.”

“And UP! Shoot…not sure why those are so jolty today….what’s that song in my head right now…oh yea, love that song…Josh Ritter…what a smiley face……Ok…focus…stand, stay standing! Uh, now I gotta wait….”

Crossed-arm, waiting –  “Ok, might barf. Hate this part. I think I forgot to breathe back there…better make up for that now…breathe deep…oh no, that makes it worse…nausea…ok, breathe soft. Just wait, he’s coming over….oh, never mind, other guy goes first. Wait your turn… Don’t be a wimp in these last ones…you’re only in NYC for 4 practices, make ’em count!”

Eddie walks over, I tuck my thumbs into the straps of my tank, take a deep breath and then.…”Curl back, be loose, just go…”

“Ooh ok, a little choppy, and again…breathe…up, down, keep going, breathe Frances! Curl curl curl…ok ok ok…last one here we go!”

“Yes, walk-in, walk-in, oh hello there feet…those are my feet, right? Ok good, those are my heels…now what? now what?”

Eddie interjects: “Shall we?”

Me: “OK!”

“One ankle grab! Sweeet! Strong legs…press press press! Second ankle – gotcha! Iron grasp…I got you ankles and there aint nothing you gonna do about it! Yea! Strong legs, feel the opening….”

and then…. total radio silence. breathing. stillness.

nirodha.

“and we’re back…wow that was awesome…that’s what it’s all about right? Love it. Ok, up we go! Crystal clear, what a rush! So flippin’ awesome!”

“Oh, but now it’s that time again…I feel like such an old lady…one hand down…okay, easy does it!! And I’m down, read for the squish!”

“Aaah, sweetness…..well, my work is done.”

 

 

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